I read your little vent you posted. I'm sorry to hear, you poor thing<3 That girl sounds like the most audaciously rude person just about ever... Try not to let her get to you. I know that's almost useless advice, because I hear that a lot and it's really hard to do :( But from the outside looking in, it's probably the only advice I can offer you. I'm so sorry you have to put up with that <3 Surround yourself with friends and people that make you happy, or she could really mess with your well-being. At least, that's what happened to me in a sort of similar situation. I wish you the best, stay strong and get happy xoxoxoxox :)
Aw thank you so much, the fact that you read through all of that is insane. And I know you are right, its just hard since we are roommates…But I am trying…I’m done with being cut down. You’re right about my well-being though, I do need to surround myself with happier nicer people!
I have a fucking tension headache from how angry I am.
So i was in one of my suite-mate (Bee’s) room right before I went to bed and Bee said she had to tell me something. My roommate and her had a talk today…em told her about an “outburst” that I had yesterday… but Totally switched shit up..saying that she doesn’t remember what SHE said (bitch it happened yesterday!) but I started yelling “You’re Inferior!” to her Umm..No Em made a rude statement about another suite mate and I joked about the suite mate being inferior that so em could realize how mean she sounded but anyway… (btw the suite-mate WAS THERE..and said Thanks to me later)
I thought that was it. NOPE. It’s just the tip of the fucking iceberg..
She said “Gemma is being really emo lately…” “She thinks shes better than everyone else and never comes to practice anymore” “I’ve been holding back so much lately b/c I dont want to fight about petty things” etc (let me recap why I have been so “emo”…I buried my best friend last year…every now and then I get sad/angry..SOO EMO RIGHT?!?!?!?!??!) I looked at Bee and I started shaking…And i thought of what i cud do. 1. go in there and scream my lungs out at her or 2. cry. I burst into tears and started violently shaking and I realized I get out of the suite ASAP b/c all Ii wanted to do was go in there and make her feel just a tiny bit of the anger I was feeling. I threw on some clothes (she was in bed asleep) and booked it out of there and met up with a friend… cried and raged and talked about the shit I want to say to her.. such as Please change ur fucking major bc u obviously are going to send ur poor clients to their fucking graves u inconsiderate fucking bitch..try a business major maybe?I can’t believe her…I told her how I feel homesick..And I told Bee (my captain) that I am taking a week off of rugby for some personal time since I need to get my emotions under control..
(I’ve been missing him so much lately..and been angry at how sucicide is now a part of my past..and how even though I’m only 20 I feel 50) She knows I lost my best friend and then she goes and bitches about me?? And says shes been holding back??? Wow….I am in Shock..Esp. since she has said so much cruel shit to me this past year..such as
1. I’m majoring in Sociology and em said she figured out why: "B/c it’s SOOOO easy!!!!" (actually it’s my 2nd major and really interests me… and unlike her 100 level intro soc class that made her think that way, my 200 & 300 classes are not a walk in the park)
2. My only assest is my chest…We have both gained weight but "guys will still like Gemma b/c she has tits"(Um thanks but my boyfriend hasn’t been with me for 4 years because I am a C-cup)
3. I mentioned how my friends call me “jolly green giant” b/c I am at least 4inches taller than all of them & Irish."They weren’t talking about your height" (best part?? We didn’t hear her she she said it so she REPEATED HERSELF and then went HAHAHA I’m Only Kidding HAHAHAHA! as the rest of us looked at her in shock)
That’s only a few…But I need to get ready for class and try to get rid of this headache…